Jordyn the Paperback Princess

After all these years this book still gives me nightmares. D:

Only read the first book because that was  boring as hell. The writing is bland and I kept falling asleep trying to read it. Booooo. :(

I love me some Tobias, but this was boring as hell.

OK Jordyn...breathe...

If you know me I do NOT give a lot of five stars. I'm not one of those people who just hand out five stars to every book I 'liked'. A book has to be pretty fucking amazing to receive five stars from me, let alone go onto my favorites shelf. To get onto my favorites shelf a book has to:

~Have beautiful writing that keeps me hooked from the first page to the last page

~Have memorable characters who I will never forgot no matter how many books I read after this one. I will always remember Saba and how bad ass she is

~have a unique story plot

~Basically keeping me up all night

Blood Red Road had this and MORE. This was seriously one of the best YA books I have ever read in my life. This is up there for me along with; Daughter of Smoke and Bone, Harry Potter, and The Hunger Games.

and Jack....

Seriously guys, read this book! The writing may be a bit different, but you forget all about that once you get sucked into the story.

4.5 stars

This could have easily been a 5 star read for me. By 30% I was close to just giving it 5 stars because it's that intense. The only reasons why this did not get a full 5 from me is because the confusing POVs and the whole undercover crap was just thrown in at the end.

Each chapter is a different POV and you can't tell whose chapter it is until you get through a few paragraphs. Is it so hard to put the character's name at the top of the page? Seriously, when I buy my own copy of this I'm writing in the character's name at the beginning of each chapter so I'm not confused next time I read this.

THIS SPOILER CONTAINS MAJOR SPOILERS THAT WILL RUIN THE WHOLE BOOK SO DO NOT READ IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HAVE THE BOOK RUINED FOR YOU.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

When I found out that Zoe was an undercover cop shocked and confused the hell outa me. The reason why she was chosen for the case was so random that it really didn't have anything to do with the story. It seemed like the author just through that in there about the crimes Elizabeth's brothers did.

BUT HOLY FUCK THAT ENDING IS SO FUCKING TWISTED! I seriously did NOT see that coming.

I wouldn't have thought that Claudia faked her pregnancy. I did find it odd that she kept talking about her miscarries, but didn't really think anything of it.

Kudos to Hayes on writing a twisted thriller/mystery that keeps you guessing until the very end. And that last sentence?

Wasn't planning on giving this 4 stars. I gave this 5 stars last year and loved it to the point where I bought myself a copy right after reading it. This time around though didn't go so well with me despite the 4 stars you see above. Part 1 was epic as ever, but parts 2 and 3 were so boring. I was ready to DNF this a few times, but kept at it. I'm glad I did because that ending IS. FUCKING AWESOME. I forgot how amazing the last few pages are.

Still sad I didn't love this as much as I did last year though...hopefully this sequel is better. *fingers crossed*

I swear if I ever have kids I'm never getting a nanny. O__o

This is better then the first time I read this. 

Onto the last book :)

Cute, fun summer book. I just wish the insta love wasn't that bad..

This book is so damn cute!

3.5 Stars

“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel."


So...




I'm disgusted by anything to do with incest. Flowers in the Attic? yuck. Game of Thrones? Double yuck. Just the thought of a brother and a sister getting down n' dirty just makes me wanna barf. Even cousins getting together is gross. If I had a brother I would NEVER be like Never! Not even if my crazy mom locked my non existent brother and I in the attic for a year and the only person I communicated with was him. Not happening. Nuh uh!

I honestly think the main reason why this doesn't get a full four stars from me is the fact that I didn't feel emotionally connected to Lochan and Maya's relationship. It wasn't just because they are related(that's a big reason though), it was also because I was sick of them going back and forth with their feelings. One page they would be like 'We can be together, we can make it work.' Then not even three pages later, 'What the hell are we doing? This isn't right. We gotta stop.' I understand they are confused about how they feel about each other, but this constantly happened throughout the whole book! It annoyed the hell outa me.

Although I didn't feel emotionally connected to Maya and Lochan's relationship, I did care for them as characters. They go through hell! I can't believe the mother let things get that bad for her children! I swear some people should not have kids. What Lochan, Maya, Kit, Tiffin, and Willa go through is just awful. No kids should have to go through that. I hope that mother blames herself for what happened for the rest of her miserable life. ><


And poor Lochan! All the pain he went through at the beginning of the book broke me. I can relate to him. I'm somewhat socially awkward. I don't like talking to people in real life. I avoid it if I can. I'm not as bad as he is, but sometimes I have trouble looking people in the eyes and usually mumble my replies. In school I never raised my hand to answer questions and usually just stared down at my desk. Just like Lochan, I stutter sometimes if I have to talk to people in public. Especially if I don't know the person. I'm ok with family and friends, but if someone starts chatting with me I will most likely mumble and not talk a lot. And the thing is I don't want to be this way. I want to be able to talk to people comfortably and be social. It's just something I gotta work on. SO whenever Lochan had anxiety attacks my heart broke for him. Even though his POV was a little awkward at times(the hard on he got during the dancing with Maya was especially awkward!) I still felt bad for him. I just wanted to cuddle with him and tell him everything will be ok.



Ok, enough with the negatives!

This book, even though it's flooded with incest, is a beautifully written book. There's no doubt about that.

“This whole time, my whole life, that harsh, stony path was leading up to this one point. I followed it blindly, stumbling along the way, scraped and weary, without any idea of where it was leading, without ever realizing that with every step I was approaching the light at the end of a very long, dark tunnel. And now that I've reached it, now that I'm here, I want to catch it in my hand, hold onto it forever to look back on - the point at which my new life really began.”

Sure, even the beautiful writing didn't make me forget that they are bro and sis like most people did, but I did end up loving the writing. Damn this lady can write! The non incest parts were written like poetry. Just so smooth and flowing. I will definitely be reading more of her books that's for sure!

I do have to give props to Tabitha Suzuma for writing a YA book with a challenging subject. Not a lot of people can pull it off, but I think she definitely did. I also love how she didn't romanticize the idea of incest. It happened and Maya and Lochan knew that what they were doing was wrong but couldn't do anything about the feelings they have for each other. If she romanticized the idea of incest that would have been a whole other issue and I have a feeling a lot of people who read this book wouldn't have loved it if she went that route. So kudos to you, Tabitha!

I think I'm the only person who didn't cry or be sad at the end of the book because (view spoiler)[Lochan killed himself (hide spoiler)] . *checks friend's reviews* Yup, I'm basically the only person. Damn. My problem with the ending was that it was too predictable. I saw it coming once they had sex. I just knew something awful was going to happen. I was expecting to be like


I did not shed a single tear. I must be a heartless bitch. :/ I think it would have been sadder if (view spoiler)[Maya had killed herself then Lochan would have to live with that in prison. (hide spoiler)] Then the younger kids wouldn't have had anyone. If that would have happened I would be bawling like a baby.

I'm glad I gave this book a chance, but I think I'm done with incest books. I'll stick with my teacher/student relationships as my taboo reading choice. I will however, read her other book Hurt. I want to read more of her gorgeous writing!

"I continue stroking the covers, the rhythmical movements soothing me, reminding me that, even if I am breaking up inside, all around me things remain the same, solid and real, bringing me the hope that perhaps one day I, too, will feel real again."

This book is so depressing. :(

This is great so far and I love how badass Jane is. She reminds me of Mercy Thompson. :D